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38, 39, 39, 41… wait a minute…

Posted by Nightravyn on May 4th, 2010 | 1 comment

So tomorrow is my birthday. Yep, May 5th, Cinco de Mayo. Invariably, I want Mexican food on my birthday, which means in recent years with the popularity of Cinco de Mayo as a beer- and Mexican-food driven holiday, I’ve not eaten Mexican food on my birthday. (Damn you, beer makers! I’m looking at you, Corona!)

Unlike some of the people in my age group, I actually really do still get excited about my birthday. What can I say: it’s the little kid in me getting all “eeee!” And while trying to go to sleep last night, I started thinking about why that is, and I think I know why.

Invariably, when I was growing up, my birthday got screwed over, and I’m always hoping that the next one won’t be.

My birthday, being towards the end of the school year, meant it usually got lost in the mess of studying, test, and general “Nooo! Want to go outside and play cos it’s SPRING!” (Mom and the teachers used to agree: I had the worst case of “spring-itus” they’d ever seen. Very similar to the high school “senior-itus” only with less sass.) So instead of it being forgotten (which it was one year and boy that hurt like hell, sweet 16 my ass), it was always kind of an afterthought. Which sometimes, being an afterthought is worse than it being totally forgotten.

I’ve gotten resigned over the years, but it still sucks. And then there’s this year. One of those “life moment” years. Yep, I’m turning… ::sigh:: 40. And yeah, I’m not exactly thrilled about it. I mean, I just got 39 to come out of my mouth without choking on it. Trying to say 40 causes physical pain. I’ve finally hit the point in life where someone can get “cute” and send me a black balloon with “OMG you’re 40!” on it. So help me, the first person that does is getting the balloon back with stab marks in it.

Yep, I’m a grumpy one this year. But I think I might have solved part of this issue. Tomorrow, I will turn 39 for the second time. No, I’m not going to hold on to 39 forever. Thursday, I’ll most likely be saying “Yep, just turned ::gag:: 40.” But for tomorrow, just to take the sting out of it, I’ll be 39 one more time.

Now I just hope the actual birthday doesn’t suck. ;)